My Option About the Rights of Abortion or Anything Like It.

So do you want your rights back or not taken away from you? Guess what you still have them if you vote. You have the power to vote who goes into office: as mayor, senator, congress, president and local laws. If you do not like what they are doing, let them know, write to them. As Americans we have this right.

I am getting sick of the politicians bring up the issue about abortions and women’s health. I am sick of the promise that you will make abortion illegal or find ways around it. GUESS WHAT, IT IS NOT YOUR BODY OR YOUR FAMILY. They should not have any control over your body any way or form. GOD gave us free will to do what we want and to think what we want. Do not bring in that it is murder, so you rather murder the mother, if the child that is growing in her will kill her. Hmm, some have never thought of that, or I never heard anyone point it out.

There is a reason and it is not your right to judge us. That is between me and GOD. You have no right to take away the rights that other women before me fought to allow me to have theses rights. I never had or will have abortion; it is hard enough for me to just try to conceive a child. I am fighting for my rights and any other women, who have to make this decision in their life. Also I am fighting for the rights of my sisters, aunts, friends, nieces and future daughters.

So what brought this one, the news and hearing politicians talking about that this is what the people want. I love to hear all some who would talk against them. I want them to be heard and let them know we are not going back to the Stone Age. We are moving forward, that what humans do move forward. That is why we learn history, to not repeat or prevent the past from repeating. Remember we got this far do not let them think they can take us back to good old past.

Reflection of 2011

In 2011, many things happen to my family and myself. First, I was laid off from my job of six years at the title insurance company. I enjoyed being a at home Mom, with my son, but a realize that 10 years of office experience with no college degree will not get me the job I wanted.  Since the unemployment department allows people to go back to a two year college and has to be a specific degree.  I decided to go back to college. But at the same time, I was able to find a temporary job with Planar Systems in the Reseller Support department.

Then I got busy, working and going college full time. I decided on getting my Associates in Business Management because I would like to have a job with more responsibilities. Then my husband was gone for two weeks on business trip.  Since I was working full time and going to college at nights, I knew what it felt like being a single mom. 

After Spring term, I was offered my old job back and I took it. The reason being is that it had more opportunities to have a permanent job and have benefits. Since being laid off in January and losing great benefits, it is a goal of my husband and I to find better job with great benefits. I have been going to college and working ever since.

But emotionally, it has been a year of discovering who I am and what I want to do. Before this year, I knew what I wanted but never really did anything about it.  I guess turning 30 does that to some people. How I feel about my birthday is a sore subject and it nothing to do with the age thing. Anyhow, I still feel depress during Christmas season.  I do not know what it is, but right after Thanksgiving til mid-January early February, I am a stick in the mud.  It is hard for me to be happy. This year I really tried to focus on making it better.

Other than that I was trying to figure out what I want to do. Every thing from spiritual, emotional, to physical. Every time I hit a low or pray for guidance I get a new idea or way at looking at things. I have been grateful that I have grown more and learn more in this last year than I did in the last 10 years. So I still pray to God that every year will be happier and better than the last.

My Happiness

For the last few months, I have been thinking about my own happiness.  What do I want to do? Is this what I want to do?  Is there more to life?  What would my obituary say about me?  What would my children say in the future about me? These questions mostly came to me when I was laid off earlier this year.  Before hand I was move through life without any sense of what I was doing. It was like I was on auto-pilot but I knew I was not happy.  But I did not have a clue what to do to find my happiness.

Now about eight months later, I have changed a lot, or at least my way of thinking about things happening to me and my family.  I wanted to find out what can make me happy.  I did a lot of reading and research into find happiness or solving a problem that would help me be more happy if it was solved.  Also I did a lot of praying and thinking about what made me unhappy.  Of course, my responsibility to my family came first, I went back to college to get my Associates to get a better job.  A job opportunity open up to where I can help support my family financially. Even though it is less pay than what I was making when I was laid off with no benefits, but this is better than living off employment.  I told myself that is temporary, eventually, I will have a successful business in something I love to do.

In what? I do not know yet, I have many ideas. I am still in the process of trying to find one that will work with my ultimate dream. I will tell you later about that.

I have notice, even though I have not specifically work on my happiness, I did not know that was what I was looking for. I was try to fix many things that had many words to describe them.  But after reading The Happiness Project by Grechten Rubin, I found the one word I have been working on the last eight months and what I was looking for all my life. Happiness. Thank you Grechten for a wonderful book, it looks like I have more to do (in my opinion for my happiness) but you have given me the tools to pursuit and expand my own happiness journey.

Going Back to College

Earlier this month, I decided to go back to college and get my Associates in Applied Sciences in Business Management.  I had to go to the advisor to find out what kind of classes I can take and what I have already take that will be part of my Associates. I thought that I got everything ready to do to register for classes, come the day I am aloud to, I found out that I did not. I was not re-active as a student when I saw the advisor. So I sign up through online, thinking it will only take a few days.

So I waited a few days, I called because I still did not get an email. Well I called the admissions lady told me it could take about a week. But I told her that I was already a student and that I stop take classes a few years ago, I was coming back. She was able to help me and becoming an active student again. But I had to wait another 24 hours to register.

Next day, in the evening, I tried to register, the system was down. Okay I will do it the next day, I forgot. Okay I did it the next day, got 3 of 4 classes. Fourth class will not let me sign up because I did not have the prerequisites classes done. But I saw on my transcript that I did have them done. So I had to email he advisor that I saw a week ago. She was able to help me by override the system. So, now that I sign up for spring term. Next is the fun part of how we are going to pay for this.

Did some thing new today.

This is something we have all done in PE growing up. Strength exercise. But today when I was doing it, my 15 month old son was attacking me and giggling. He thought it was the funnest thing he has ever seen. He barely let me finish my reps and sets. I was laughing with him, kissing him, kind of made it a game. Since I know that exercise will help me feel better and getting healthier. I am trying to think be health will lose the weight not losing the weight will be health.

Of course the sun just came out and it is time for my little man nap. Of course he was mad that I put him down for a nap, I hope when he is up that I can still go for a walk. I am using Sparkpeople website to help me on my journey. I am taking very little baby steps. Hope it works.

Looking for Work

I have been looking for work for almost 4 weeks now. It is getting hard to find work to apply for with my experience and pay wage. The problem is that I have a lot of experience and at my last job I was getting good wage. Also there is not that many jobs posted with wages near what I was making. Of course when I apply for jobs that do not post a wage, I find out later that I am over qualified for the position and that it is not in my pay range. Well, I now I have to think outside the box to find a way to make some money.

Well, I have been getting emails about work for self employment positions, like Financial Adviser or Insurance Agent, you have to pay a lot up front for training and licenses. Also you have to network with friends and family or cold call or buy more leads to get your business going. I have talked about this with my husband and if I do this it will be a last resort kind of thing. Also I do not know if I can still claim unemployment benefits or training can be call for career change and it's okay to claim.

Then there is going back to school, guess what they will not pay unemployment benefits if I go back. They will not let me because my job is still here in the United States and did not get ship overseas. Also my skills can be used for any industry. If there is office work then I must apply but the problem is most Office work is entry level position and is paying to low for me.

I have a few other ideas about making some money but I need to get a plan in place for business ideas. I need to some research and brainstorming. I might need some investors as well. I am trying to think of things to do between interview and job searching, which is not very often. Cleaning house gets boring after a while.

Laid Off

Well, I was laid off about 2 weeks ago from my job of 6 years. I did go through the grief stages. Now I am at a point that I am starting to get better. I am starting to get things done, not letting the sadness of not finding a job soon and that there is practically nothing in my pay range and skills for me. I will continue to look for a job but also I am trying to find other things to do with my time. I heard on the news the other day, that the average person that was in unemployment was 9 months. I hope we still have our house by then or I have found a job or way to earn money to help pay for bills and debt we have.

Today, it took me 1 hour and half to clean and get laundry started. I was not trying to get it done fast but I wonder around my upstairs and getting things done. Before today, I was filling over whelmed with all the chores and things around the house that I could get done. But what I did to get done in that hour and half, I was surprise myself again. Well, it sounds like some one is ready for his nap and I can get the dishes done.